buttercup baby

my new home

2010-02-03T22:09:00.000-08:00

i'm actually much better at posting regularly then i thought i would be, maybe its a phase, maybe if you haven't visited yet you should www.oh-heart.blogspot.com x

im moving

2009-11-26T03:18:00.000-08:00

blog houses. time for a change. :) the change may be abit slow/dragged out, but bear with me. x

http://oh-heart.blogspot.com/

over and over

2009-11-18T04:22:00.000-08:00

i'd like to retreat here for a week or two,

you make me feel this small when you back me out of so many conversations. rejection complex, hello.

2009-11-11T19:36:00.000-08:00

chin up.

2009-11-09T01:21:00.000-08:00

i think i am defined more then anything by my friends. that is so scary.

2009-11-09T00:29:00.000-08:00

"to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no-one, not even to an animal. wrap it careful around hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of selfishness. bus in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... the only place outside of heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love is hell." C.S Lewis.

i don't think i've posted this before. but i could be wrong, i do love this quote. it sums me up pretty well. i'm the wear-my-heart-on-my-sleeve kinda person, not in a romantic relationship kinda way but just, i will love you. through it all.

basically

2009-10-16T19:19:00.000-07:00

i just wish i could whistle.

hold on my heart

2009-10-07T03:35:00.000-07:00

i know my heart your strong,
got a feeling that you'll survive,
these lost and lonesome times.

hold on my heart, hold on my heart,
find your stronger part and hold on my heart.

thinking of him each day, when he is miles away,
you know it wont serve you well,
it's better for time to tell.

now you're growin, up wiser,
oh, your not so easily crushed,
still innocent and strange,
all your strength still remains.

oh sarah blasko, i do enjoy you endlessly.

p.s- i really enjoy this one alot too. we don't have a picture together and i'm not into that fact at all.

images 1 and 2 found via we heart it.

the ones we love

2009-10-05T01:15:00.000-07:00

it feels like my world has been spinning in double- time. meetings every few nights. trips to auckland. shows. youth. threw a baby shower. bridesmaid dress shopping. wedding planning. hens nights to be thrown. youth ball soon. team tonga. but my friends are so so good, so this is for them. in the order i find photos.

rosie posie, i enjoy it when you call me at 2am and keep me company until i fall asleep. i miss sleeping on your floor, i'm sad that i don't see you enough. please come back into my life alot.

beka, babe of my life. encourages me, loves me, hangs with me. the best neighbour you could ask for.

kayla, you are crazy but lovely. and i love you.

amie, i gave you your first nickname within 2 days of knowing you. you make me laugh so much. your bible verse texts get me through work. i just flippin love you.

jess, since you've gotten back there have been so many moment where i have LITERALLY stopped and just had a moment of being stoked that your back in my country. oh i enjoy you so much. arohanui x

josiah, oh rock, come back you dick. x

oh laura, my best, you will be my maid of honour. i can sit, laugh, cry, listen and just be with you. thank you.

leon, my braja- we are so alike in so many ways. i hope you are in my life forever.

kathleen, most sweet-hearted girl i know. you are a joy and light and i love you.

josh, i enjoy you, lets watch john mayer together soon. and august rush. and nick and norahs infinate playlist. good.

bill, you win on every level, you are so decent. i love having weekly(nearly) coffee with you. love you friend.

josh, oh my soul, what a year for you huh? by the end of it you'll have a new wife and a daughter, yikes. you are my brother and i will be here for you always.

bob, you rule, i'm glad your in my life. getting text updates on that boy made me laugh. vetz breakfasts made me laugh. you make me laugh! i'm stoked to lead with you!

p.s- amanda can we hang out soon please? i miss your face. we haven't taken a photo together all year, i think of you often. and lauren joy ness, same goes for you. come and have a holiday at my house please.

oh heart heart heart

2009-09-08T03:34:00.000-07:00

"Her heart fed his vanity, so he kept it in his pocket and painted the masks he wore with the dreams he found in her unconditional affection. He put her down softly. So softly that his dark words sounded like love songs. He held no mirrors in his soul and looked at himself reflected in her eyes, because in them he found his flaws erased. She loved him and he loved that she loved him, so he broke her heart slowly. He furnished the spaces inside her with quiet confusion and self doubt until his invisible flaws became her own. He remained perfect in her eyes"

words by Paper Face

2009-09-05T04:14:00.000-07:00

enjoyable things right now: multiple beverages at cafes, for example a coffee and a dc. sending away bags and bags of clothes to opshops. putting on shorts and tshirt in the morning, walking outside, realising its freezing, go back inside and get changed into something more appropriate. team tonga. going to the mount. wooden pegs. organising baby showers, weddings and balls. buying dresses for said events (actually this is not enjoyable, can't find a single thing i'd like). filming youth videos in elevators. where the light is dvd. new notebooks. new magazines. old friends. weheartit.com. writing notes.

just a minute.. in september

2009-09-03T04:00:00.000-07:00

Reading... not alot really, i can't concentrate for long enough at the moment.

Watching... also not alot, except for rhys darbys stand up comedy dvd, love him!

Loving... running. spring. fairy lights on my walls.

Cooking... carrot cakes galore.

Wanting... to go to america.

my life story. honestly.

2009-09-02T04:12:00.000-07:00

staying up way too late on weheartit.com again, eeek.

my corner.

2009-09-01T03:50:00.000-07:00

rearranged my room, magic! heres a few snaps in average light.

Bob Dylan is a genius.

I'm searching for cute vintage white frames from opshops to put my Frankie magazine posters in. (sorry if you think thats 'sad')

I do love these book shelves, got the last in New Zealand, this is one little box of 6, lovely.

Also, I'm addicted to Pixie Lott's cover of Use Somebody by Kings of Leon, and John Mayer is still ruling my playlists.

why do you steal my hand

2009-08-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

whenever im standing my own ground?

p.s- please take me here.

images found via weheartit.

oh you bring

2009-08-23T22:15:00.000-07:00

oh my soul, i just realised i haven't even blogged about my wee trip across to Australia at the end of last month, how slack am i! heres just a few snaps and highlights of a beautiful week,

goodbye new zealand...

and kia ora gold coast!

at splendour in the grass watching bloc party, i didn't get many photos from splendour but it was amazing! so many bands and people with amazing fashion and culture, ahhh, loved it so much. and VIP lounge wasn't half bad either heh heh.

i was so excited to go visit this lighthouse in byron bay, we just had the most beautiful weather while we were over there, blue skies everyday.

we stayed with rosie's family in ballina, which is about 20 minutes away from byron bay, siiick! they get this view everyday.

went for a sweet skate, haha glorious.

love this place.. red ginger.. biggest selection of green tea i've seen!

ballina beach.. at night.. in barefeet.. after they told me about the snakes. heck.

i taught them everything they know.

lots of car trips, means lot of photos.

off to do some more shopping i'd say.

the nimbin tour bus.. oh nimbin..

we spent the last two days in brisbane where i didn't take many photos but there was lots of shopping and sushi involved, amazing. so happy to be back in new zealand though, i truly love this country, and summer is coming, so exciting!
i think this has been long enough now. x

just a minute.. in august

2009-08-03T02:08:00.000-07:00

Reading... the new russh and nylon, i don't think that counts.

Watching... ohh, have been watching the i.t crowd, love it!

Loving... pj pants, so good.

Cooking... all things delicious.

Wanting... motivation. and sleep haha and more sleep ins, mmm sleep ins!

j.m

2009-07-21T13:08:00.000-07:00

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

heavy and light

2009-07-05T03:38:00.001-07:00

my heart is heavy and light, so many amazing things in my life, but also things going on around me that break my heart.

coldplay are so good..

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song..
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life.

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side.
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try?
Oooooh, that's right

oh my friends do bless me so much. they do.

just a minute.. in july

2009-07-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

heck! already? july!?

Reading... wild at heart and captivating. two in one thingo, its sweet.

Watching... mmm, 'dan in real life' last night, was really good!

Loving... the beauty of winter mornings but wishing it didn't result in my car beig covered in frost!

Cooking... a 14 layer cake on saturday if all goes to plan!

Wanting... always sleep. and also a diana camera, and my lomo action sampler to work. also these really cute floral tights and sunglasses i saw. i'd say acid wash tights but i plan to make my own this week. oh i said it anyway. also, i'd like my dad to be well, you know how dads are meant to be strong and basically invincible? my dads abit ill, can't get out of bed, i mostly hope he's ok.

oh goodness, you hold the ones to my heart.

you arrived just in time frankie

2009-06-29T01:48:00.001-07:00

having the new copy of frankie magazine in my hands makes me very happy. it's the 30th issue and they have a list of 30 things that they love, so here's my list of 30 things that make me happy, feel free to comment some of your own.

1. my friends, for the hangs, the hugs and they are so good looking. 2. staring at the sky. 3. perspective. 4. baking, anything, all the time, even after a day at work, i still want to bake. 5. pancakes and ice cream, goodness me, delish! 6. irony. 7. rainy sundays when i can just stay in bed for ages and not have to think about work. 8. having a really long, really hot shower and then jumping into bed with clean sheets. 9. having a jug that has a setting that keeps the water hot all the time! green tea in a flash. 10. phone calls with friends in other countries. 11. inside jokes, the kind where you don't even have to finish the joke because everyone involved is already laughing part-way through. 12. conversing with my mother via facebook, especially when she's just down the hallway. 13. re-decorating my walls and feeling totally satisfied with them.. for about a week. 14. hanging polaroids with wooden pegs, oh i love wooden pegs. 15. 'i love' lists, so uplifting haha. 16. generally, lists, i love lists so much, i'm the kind of person that writes things that i've already done on them so i can cross them off. 17. my job, i really do, i love my regular customers, the people i work with, the smell of coffee, baking all day and picking the music we listen to. 18. 'i caught myself' by paramore, i listen to it pretty much every day. 19. john mayer's music, i really do listen to him everyday. without fail. 20. dancing all night and then eating turkish delight. 21. this one boy, that really brightens my day. 22. counting down to things, australia in 25 days. 23. making something really cool from something kinda dumb from the opshop eg. awful blue mum jeans, into acid washed, cut offs to be worn with tights, nice. 24. fluffy towels, not the kind that attack you with their fluff though. 25. turning off the computer and reading. 26. hot water bottles. 27. those 'i haven't seen you in so long, i'm so glad your in my life' hugs. 28. alaska's ep, i mentioned them in an earlier post and truly if you didn't download the album, i reeeally suggest you do! they make beautiful music with harps and violins and goodness me, just check it out and then let me know what you think. 29. talking to my sisters on the phone. 30. writing.

check out www.frankie.com.au for inspiration and prettiness!

oh my

2009-06-28T04:05:00.000-07:00

there are so many talented people out there, its my favourite to spend my nights staying up too late and getting lost on weheartit.com and icanread.

some faves from tonight,

this mans music, will always be my best.

p.s- boy, please stop being nice to me, unless you want to marry me.

your the fire that heats this room

2009-06-28T03:19:00.000-07:00

and its so damn cold without you..

hello postsecret sunday.. i miss you the other 6 days a week.. sad but true.

listening to alaska. watching skins. drinking d.c. eating sushi. sleeping in. lots of blankets. rainy sunday mornings. mascara. beautiful friends. taking pictures. turkish delight. bonkers by dizzee rascal. nearly australia time.

lauren joy ness.

2009-06-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

"you thought you couldn't live without him. on that very first day the weeks and months stretched ahead of you in infinity. they wrapped around the world, then circled the moon and drifted onwards to the universe. you followed this empty time as it skipped lazily across the sky. it forced you to look up at the stars until you lost yourself in their beauty. suddenly much to your surprise, time stood still as the sun rose and your broken heart was filled with light"

i'm not sure who wrote this, i copied it down in my journal from a blog awhile ago. if anybody knows who to credit this to, let me know.

most beautiful, lauren joy ness, everything will be ok.

you are truly beautiful but so is fools gold..

2009-06-22T01:19:00.000-07:00

life is full of really beautiful things, friends, family, music, coffee, photos, adventures. i was abit sick on the weekend, migraines and such but it was beautiful none the less.

i've had the privilege of seeing a band called 'alaska' live twice in the last few weeks, they make such beautiful music and have an ep available for FREE. if you head here i'm pretty sure you will find it!

i go to byron bay in 5 weeks! and to splendour in the grass! this pictures depicts how happy that makes me!

also, it was my niece alyssa's first birthday on the weekend, got to see my sisters, very good.

my sister made that! she is so super talented.

my other amazing sister, she wont let me put this on facebook, but i don't think she reads this heh heh.

aaand, my room is in serious need of some de-cluttering! it's crazy, such a looong process though. one day, one day.. haha.

love and light x

p.s- i think i have an almond stuck in the back of my throat, feels v. weird.

just a minute.. in june

2009-06-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

i've decided to join in on 'just a minute'.. head here for the deetz!

Reading... twilight.. starting the saga again, awful i know haha. just finished 'the perks of being a wallflower' by stephen chbosky, and about to start (again, properly) velvet elvis by rob bell.

Watching... not alot to be honest.

Loving... bringing my leather vest out of the closet, recent cute shoes i've found, walking into the kitchen at work each morning to escape the cold!

Cooking... alot of pumpkin with cous cous and brownies. also pancakes.

Wanting... to be in australia on holiday already! more sleep. and perhaps to be a morning person.

2009-06-14T03:28:00.000-07:00

down to you,
you're pushing and pulling me down to you
but i don't know what i,
now when i caught myself, i had to stop myself
from saying something that i should have never thought
now when i caught myself, i had to stop myself
from saying something that i should have never thought of you, of you.

i don't care what you think, i like twilight alot. wow, feels better to just admit it. heh heh heh.

the new postsecrets are not up yet, its kinda messed with my sunday night routine..
australia in 6 weeks!

x

i often just decide not to sleep

2009-06-11T03:06:00.000-07:00

and do things like this instead..

inspired by an earlier post, i like it alot. x

you could be happy.

2009-06-03T21:49:00.000-07:00

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you,
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

Taking the back roads listening to Snow Patrol. Watching the sunset from my room. Drinking homemade lemon, honey and ginger drinks. Tears of release. Being overwhelmed by the beautiful people in my life. Pancakes not for breakfast. Forts made outta sheets. Plugging in those fairy lights. Date scones. Finding the dream shoes. The promises I cling to each day. Hope for tomorrow. my Father.

i can read

2009-06-03T03:32:00.000-07:00

Found this sweet website via Cupcakes, Daisies and Sunday Afternoons , called I Can Read

oh sweet girl, you are so precious in the Fathers eyes and to me also!

I would really, really like to do this to the back of my door. Infact, I think I will.

Friend, I will always love you, but your only the person I really know about 15% of the time. The other 85%.. well I just don't know. I miss the real you. Or what was the real you. I'm okay with change when its moving on and growing up, but just becoming, kinda a stink person, it's not so simple to deal with.

That aside, I booked tickets to Brisbane last night, Byron Bay to be more specific. I am so, so excited. A weEk long break sounds like a dream. And I'm borrowing 'The Perks of being a Wallflower" off my friend, I might head off and read that now.

p.s- Check out the use of capital letters etc. here tonight folks, unusual for me.

2009-05-24T03:55:00.000-07:00

my heart always gets involved so quickly. when i love people, i don't hold back a whole lot. feels like i loved the wrong person again.

p.s- i bought paw paw ointment. and some more john mayer cd's. also, some winter boots and two new postsecret books.

paw paw ointment please.

2009-05-12T02:19:00.000-07:00

i would like to re-decorate my room.
never have to sleep so i can read alot.
have a never ending supply of green tea.
and to be able to burn incense without it making my mama dizzy.

i also spend too many hours getting lost on weheartit.com late at night instead of sleeping.

and i'm into truth in a big way.

i love these youth

2009-05-12T01:59:00.000-07:00

we had a youth camp on the weekend, 80's fever! dressed up 80's, did 80's aerobics, made music videos and raved. i love these young people.

Bob's lifegroup, so so good.

man they are cool! i was not that cool hahaha..

express rave in the forest please?

amazing :) thank you team.

and so it goes

2009-04-26T03:38:00.000-07:00

im miles from where you are
i lay down on the cold ground
and i pray that something picks me up
and sets me down in your warm arms.

martha wainwright is so good.

weekend at the beach. coffee. opshops. surf shops. sand castles. twilight. gilmore girls. fondue. pancake lunch. waves crashing. rain. boots. feist. blankets. green tea. sisterhood of the travelling pants 2. laughing fits. group cooking efforts. more coffee.

so share this breath with me

2009-04-14T03:05:00.000-07:00

i like, coming home to my bed, after being somewhere different for awhile. reading saturdays paper on tuesday night. listening to songs on repeat for hours. looking through photos and remembering times and places and the people that made it. james morrisons voice. dancing to late 80's mercedes and lt. funk with friendzales. incense burning. running til i feel like my legs might fall off. working with cayley. singing in my car in the morning. or the afternoon. or night, whenever really.

from one of my fave blogs twisted and tongue tied she's just lovely.

haere ra x

why is john mayer so good?

2009-04-04T22:01:00.000-07:00

when i say i ask myself this question every day, i'm not even kidding.
i'm completely in awe of him right now...

It's not a silly little moment
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath of
This love we've been working on

Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw

I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Because you can't understand

We're going down
And you can see it too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Go cry about it, why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

Don't you think we oughta know by now?
Don't you think we shoulda learned somehow?

my dear we're slow dancing in a burning room

2009-04-04T21:24:00.000-07:00

this weekend has been beautiful..
sleepovers with laura. sunday brunch with laura and beka. shopping and finding sweet bargains. baking. sunshine. laughter. conversation. impromptu adventure to auckland to visit mt eden and play in the city.
getting ready for the busy busy week ahead..

monday- wednesday nights i'm helping with this thing called 'stations of the cross' its like an interactive art exhibition held in the Hamilton gardens every easter. heaps of artists come together to make it happen and it is such a priviledge to be part of it, ushering people through. if your from Hamilton make sure you come and check it out.. doors at 7:30 pm each night til around 10pm, its $5 and runs until Saturday night. and you get an amazing fair trade coffee (or hot chocolate) once you've been through.

then thursday night until monday afternoon i'm going to easter camp. so excited. a 4 day break sounds like a dream!

pretty much only listening to around 6 artists/bands at the moment.. john mayer, adele, angels and airwaves, justice, the postal service, the ember days, coldplay and a few others.. so good.

(not sure where this picture came from, got it from lauras computer)

love and light. x

mulled wine under the stars

2009-03-27T04:22:00.001-07:00

time with the girls. sipping wulled wine under the stars. singing to adele. thinking of you.

melt my heart to stone.

2009-03-26T02:52:00.000-07:00

why do you steal my hand, whenever im standing my own ground,
you build me up, then leave me dead.

- adele is so brilliant. and spot on at times. goodness me.

oh man oh man oh man.

2009-03-25T02:58:00.000-07:00

this was not my intention.

100th post.

2009-03-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

how exciting!
and on my new computer too! yee!

so busy lately! my 18th party, coldplay, people coming and going... but He is constant and He is sovereign and on the throne. always.

photos of my hot friends for you to stare at..

i was pretty anti this picture, but not the boy. good friend. dick.

i went to coldplay, they made me fall in love, all kinds of amazing and wonderful..

my best friend, miss laura jane. love her, we also don't intend on wearing nearly, matching outfits and don't actually shop together all that often, what can i say, we are one?

top things to look forward to:

akl this weekend for skyes 21st.
easter camp, hangs with kathleen and floss. yay.
80's fever youth camp.
my next lifegroup, i miss my girls.
starting my new scrapbook.
printing more photos.
the green tea im about to go make.

i so enjoy rob ryan's art. and listening to angels and airwaves tonight. x

i will try to fix you

2009-03-20T03:44:00.000-07:00

...

tagged :)

2009-03-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

jules from Candy Hearts tagged me.

I must find,
1 picture
1 poem
1 song or piece of music
1 phrase of quote
1 item of clothing
1 place
1 disney princess
Then tag six more darlings,

Picture:

I kind of cheated with this, because I just wanted to sneak another fave quote in there haha.

Poem:

I'm not entirely sure that this counts as a poem but I think Rob Ryan is a genius.

Song:
Photograph by Shooting Stars.
My life is an instant
and no matter what I say
my actions declare the real me.
In a snapshot of my life
where do you fit in
and where do you see me?

so take this photograph from my hands
am I worthy to continue this romance
they say a picture can tell a thousand words
will my portrait add up to any worth?

The span of my years
is just a breath in time
it's all i've got to say is mine
so share this breath with me
and stay for the shot
stay right here forever.

Quote:
"He aha te mea nui o tea o?
He tangata, he tangata, he tangata!"

"What is the most important thing?
It is people, it is people, it is people!"

item of clothing:
anything for winter, i know this is cheating, but, boots, scarves, big cardi's.

place:
the beach on a clear night. even better if theres good friends, incense and some singing involved while we count shooting stars and name satellites. this is how i spent atleast 5 of my summer holiday nights, perfect.

disney princess:
i actually haven't seen most disney movies, i know that its shocking and things (also haven't seen sound of music, lord of the rings etc etc.) but i once dressed as snow white for book character day at school, does this count?

happy birthday to me.

2009-03-15T02:12:00.000-07:00

today i am 18.
i am so blessed by all my beautiful friends and family who have celebrated with me over the past two days.

more later. x

walking on a dream

2009-02-28T19:49:00.000-08:00

we had a hippy party.
it was more awesome then words or pictures can explain.
incense. dance field. fire pit. fondue. bob marley shrine. pillows and cushions. lanterns. mgmt. candles. beautiful material. peace signs. spinning til you fall over. cuddling up on the deck. more incense. new nature names.

people should always come to our parties when they are invited. it will most likely change their life.

by the way, i also answer to rainbow queen of the forest now. i know, amazing you are all so so jealous.

hello, i am rainbow queen of the forest.

fondue!

flowers in the wind.

princess moonshine.

flower child.

dave also answers to friend of nature.

magical land.

sometimes

2009-02-21T03:23:00.000-08:00

people are especially dumb.
but this too shall pass.
it will.

on another note i still have friends that rule.

when you love somebody but it goes to waste

2009-02-17T20:42:00.000-08:00

up and down

2009-02-12T01:54:00.000-08:00

going up: hangouts every night. baking. facebook events. diet coke/dc. incense. nectarines. granny smith apples. new journals. opshop finds. heels. new dresses. tan. shows. hilarious txts all day. dates. starbucks diary. chewing ice. beautiful friendships. laughing about nothing for ages. isaiah back. salmon and avocado sushi(from sushi house, alexandra street, next door to accent magazines) the man that works at accent magazines.

going down: missing jess. humidity. fringe too long. red face. hand whipping cream.

in love

2009-02-12T01:51:00.000-08:00

my niece alyssa is the cutest thing out.

stop talking, start dancing.

2009-02-03T23:41:00.000-08:00

life in all its craziness hasn't really stopped since before parachute, so i'm taking a night out to myself. last week saw shows in tauranga and hamilton with isaiah, first elevate night of the year, epic hangs on a wednesday night and brinner party on sunday(which pretty much ruled my life) top things over the past week that made me happy:

like a bat outta hell.. those in-jokes that have you in fits of laughter until you collapse into a little pile on the ground. brinner, best invention ever, for those who love breakfast but don't love mornings, breakfast for dinner, cream cheese on bagels and blueberry pancakes! picnics in the park next to church, forgot how much i love those. 1kg of cocktail sausages and camembert cheese on the way back from tga show coz countdown's the only place open at 11:45pm. diet coke/dance commander. arms reach dance parties, complete magic. 'fag' txts that make me laugh when i should be working or something equally as serious. sushi, at all costs, salmon is key. friends coming home. my quote book, filled with the funny things that come outta our mouths and end up written down in my book of gems.

things coming up that im excited about:
laura staying, she'll shotgun my bed, i'll yell 'lies', i'll come into my room after brushing my teeth and she'll be all cuddled up in it hah. beach trip on friday on the cards along with perhaps a fondue night, no matter what lots of photos and laughter. grahams 21st and rosies flat warming on saturday night, get my dance on. beka and chloes black and white 18th on sunday, my beautiful girls. working with cayley whilst shes on holiday from study, she lights up my life.

i will be content in today.

i call on you my friend

2009-01-30T01:06:00.000-08:00

bob is one of my most favourite people, whenever i need to rant he is there, he sings and dances with me, he encourages me, we cooked breakfast for 80 or so youth together (not once but 3 times)and he writes a sweet blog. check it.

bobs blog

'chute highlights.

2009-01-29T19:55:00.000-08:00

$1 bribe to skip the cue of 10 for donuts. one love vege food vendor + the lady that worked there. gazebos and couches. incense party. nutri-grain, straight up. family force 5 at palladium. secret ember days worship at debut. seeing isaiah. laura staying. tap showers. arms reach, generally, amazing dance times. radiator t-shirt. sunday night with bex and josiah. shooting stars with amy-lee. thursday night in line. beka, bex, lauren, kathleen, kelsi, josh, bill, dave, glen, graham, mark, cam and any other straglers that stayed with us (not quite any). celery. dc- the dance commander. those organic salads at the main cafe. supporters car parking for the win. quick pack up. least anti-climax monday thus far. frozen cokes with atleast twice the normal amount of sugar that mc donalds ones have. dressing graham in skinny jeans. creamed rice for beakfast. like a bat outta hell joke. continuation of quote book in my life. life is good with a trailer. chip and dip run. twloha. still letting the whole weekend dominate conversation 4 days later.

best parachute everrrr.

parachute '09

2009-01-16T19:41:00.001-08:00

this what im going to, printed out my programme and highlighted it the day it was released hahaha.

Friday
8am arrive.
5pm addison- deluxe
7pm past the sky- debut
7:30pm fly by wire(brothers band)- debut
8:10pm late 80's- mainstage
9pm mumsdollar- mainstage
10:20pm shooting stars- palladium
11pm family force five- palladium

saturday.
9:30am morning meeting- mainstage
7:35pm all left out- mainstage
8:20pm family force five- mainstage
9pm addison- debut
9:40pm arms reach- deluxe
10:30pm ember days- palladium

sunday.
9:30am morning meeting- mainstage
1:20pm shooting stars- deluxe
3:10pm bright lights- deluxe
4:30 arms reach- deluxe
6:15 the ember days- mainstage
6:40 mumsdollar- palladium
7:30 fletcher- debut
8:30 smalltown heroics- deluxe
9pm parachute band- mainstage
11pm all left out- palladium
11:10pm addison- deluxe

:)

we get on

2009-01-12T01:32:00.000-08:00

..So I went to that party everyone they kind of arty
and I was wearing this dress 'cause I wanted to impress
but I wasn't sure if I looked my best 'cause I was so nervouse
but I carried on regardless strutting through each room trying to find you
and when I saw you kissing that girl
my heart it shattered
and my eyes they watered and when i tried to speak i stuttered
and my friends were like 'whatever you'll find someone better
his eyes are way too close together and we never even liked him from the start
and nows he's with a tart
he said she's easy and not your type cause you deserve some real nice guy'

I don't ever dream about you and me
I don't ever make up stuff about us that would be classed as insanity
I don't ever drive past your house to see if you're in
I don't ever have an opinion on that tramp you are still seeing
I don't know your timetable

I don't know your face off by heart
but I must admit that there is still a part of me,
that thinks that we might get on
that we could get on
that we should get on..

I love Kate Nash. She makes me smile..

Happy Monday :)

grace.

2009-01-06T14:05:00.000-08:00

"in spite of the crazy times we're in, there's a lot to be thankful for. second chances. third chances. 734th chances. sunsets. sunrises. sunsets. And the passing of time begins to make a lot more sense to me in the context of grace instead of karma. Under a rule where love triumphs over justice..."
-jon foreman.

tag.

2009-01-04T23:36:00.000-08:00

My lovely friend Amanda from Here Comes the Sun tagged me

the rules: share six things that make you happy and tag six amazing starry-eyed bloggers!

So first off I tag;
tellings of the beautiful life
Cupcakes, Daisies & Sunday Afternoons
captured
i was a kaleidoscope
adventures
moments suspended in time

And six things that make me happy are:

1. the sky. always.. i can stare at it for hours. especially at night, counting shooting stars and naming satelites.

2. words.. lyrics, scriptures, letters.

3. photos.. of pretty things that inspire, of my friends and family, the ones i love the most.

4. dancing and singing at the top of my lungs, can you say release?

5. the beach.. the ocean, sand between my toes, sun(hopefully) on my face... ditto.

6. starbucks.. its not the best coffee in the world but i love the iced drinks, they make me happy.

p.s

2009-01-02T13:18:00.000-08:00

im doing really well. as in, im happy. ahh.. yeah :)

welcome 2009

2009-01-02T00:37:00.000-08:00

happy new year.. big emphasis on the happy.. im so excited for this year.

new perspective. lifes better when you take deep breaths. lie under the stars. jumping in the ocean. not worrying about the things i cant change. fighting the battles im meant to, letting go of the ones im not. head held high. chilling out.. generally i mean.

please slow this ride

2008-12-30T03:58:00.000-08:00

it moves too fast, i've lost control, in the past.
no more half black, half white, no more half wrong, half right, now i'm searching for a better way..

these past few weeks have been so busy busy busy. i haven't slept in my own bed for over a week now and still wont for a few more days. tonight i have done my best to make things right.. to try and mend the things i've messed up the last few weeks.. tomorrow i will run away to the beach for a few days. i'm hoping to come back with a much better perspective on things.. a break is what i've been wishing for, for so long. deep breaths. sand in between my toes. sea breeze. ice blocks. dramas aside. bible in hand. chin up.

all i know

2008-12-20T01:32:00.000-08:00

is that your the nicest thing i've ever seen...

recent happenings..

2008-12-08T02:01:00.000-08:00

playing at the lake

isaiah back for a week.

glen and dave, culprits of most late night craziness. oh what enough panckes for 10 people, oh but theres just the 3 of us? mmm..

i'd swim the ocean for you, woah kelthiii!

j and a's wedding.

dance party extreme.
ek.
photo boothing with rosie.

smiles and sunshine

2008-12-08T01:36:00.000-08:00

those i haven't seen you for so long, im so glad i know you hugs. those im always here for you no matter what hugs. hugs under the stars. hugs where you dont want to let go. laughing until you cry. laughing until you cant breathe. laughing until some form of food/beverage comes out of your nose. laughing until you fall off your bed or chair. laughing until your belly hurts so bad and your face aches. dance in the rain. running until you fall over. lying in the grass(until the hayfever kicks in). singing at the top of your lungs into a diet coke bottle. dancing until the small hours of the morning. holding hands, always. wooden bangles. christmas lights twinkling. peppermint candycanes. strawberry gum that never runs out. songs that everyone knows and gets up to dance to. the lights at dave and glens flat. rosies deck. starbuck dates. opshop every seond day atleast. hope. holidays. raglan at night. raglan in the day. sand in my bed. toering. new shoes. green tea. making cookies. printing new photos. conversation that never runs dry. breakfast with laura. list making. facebook status updates. swimming in cutoffs. acid washing said cutoffs. mt eden. trim chai from circus circus. roast veges. advent calendar. countdowns. clifford. greeting each other with a kiss on the cheek. candles. incense. church for hours. worship. serving. christmas cards. im thinking of you txts. i think you'll find this funny txts. love love love.

tag.

2008-12-07T19:16:00.000-08:00

the one word challenge tag, from the sweetest blog ever, http://theteadrinkingenglishrose.blogspot.com/ reading her blog always makes me smile and sigh lots, in a good way.

Where is your mobile phone? pocket.
Where is your significant other? somewhere..
Your hair colour? brown.
Your mother? wise.
Your father? strong.
Your favourite thing? jesus.
Your dream last night? none.
Your dream goal? love.
The room you're in? bedroom.
Your hobby? people.
Your fear? lonliness
Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy.
Where were you last night? park
What you're not? sad
One of your wish-list items? laptop
Where you grew up? hamilton
The last thing you did? vacuumed.
What are you wearing? cut-offs.
Your TV? off.
Your pets? non-existant.
Your computer? slooow :(
Your mood? hopeful.
Missing someone? always.
Your car? sugar.
Something you're not wearing? shoes.
Favourite shop? salvos.
Your summer? starting.
Love someone? lots.
Your favourite colour? sky.
When is the last time you laughed? today.
When is the last time you cried? yesterday.

tomorrow i will..

2008-11-26T00:57:00.000-08:00

go op shopping.
drink starbucks(get my card stamped).
see kelsi(hopefully).
go to the warehouse.
go to poppies bookstore.
buy more green tea.
get up early for the gym.
decide what to wear to amandas wedding and write in her card.
make yo-yo's(at work).
.. hopefully enjoy some sunshine.

2 more sleeps til i see isaiah.

listening to: Pearl and the Puppets

mixtape monday.

2008-11-17T01:27:00.000-08:00

it sure is a mix. goodnight x

no more half black, half white

2008-11-16T18:21:00.000-08:00

no more half wrong, half right, im searching for a better way.

Listening to: M.D

curly girl design

2008-11-14T00:57:00.000-08:00

make the prettiest cards and things!
you can find them at www.curlygirldesign.com
i bought a few cards by them today from poppies, my fave is one on the website that says "with hearts... the best thing you can do is invite someone in, make them some tea, and secretly hope they dont break anything" cute!

baby if your still awake..

2008-11-12T02:32:00.000-08:00

call me when you get this.

corinne bailey rae and nights with laura and wii are good.

nooma.

2008-11-11T02:27:00.000-08:00

wish you well

2008-11-10T00:39:00.000-08:00

Today, Emily May Elizabeth Davis got on a plane and went back to australia.
it's such a weird thought that on friday night when i'm doing whatever i'm doing, she wont be there. and on sunday after church when we go to metropolis, she still wont be there. it's been such a crazy year for friends moving.. i love you emmi..

picnic at the gardens in january, wine glasses and everything ahaha.

on our way into parachute

the day we nearly walked from her house to church coz it only takes 15 minutes aye em? hahaha (i'll have you know that it'd probably take close to 2 hours).

one of the times we baked cupcakes!

bonfire in raglan!

at metrops one summers night.

eating some sweet wendys in tga after watching the ember days play!

some form of show.

on the plane to sydney!!

outside the airport with no doze, 3am mind you.

in circus circus, mt eden. the last weekend we played.

moustache party!

at israels 18th

you will be missed..

mixtape monday

2008-11-10T00:14:00.000-08:00

one of my favourite blogs to read daydream lily put out the invitation to join her in mixtape mondays, sounds like fun to me.

the girl- city and colour
let go- frou frou
falling slowly- glen hansard and marketa irglova from the movie 'Once'.

i think i'd miss you, even if i hadn't met you.

2008-11-09T01:26:00.000-08:00

this is an emergency

2008-11-08T03:41:00.000-08:00

there are tears from the saints, for the lost and unsaved, we're crying for them come back home, come back home. and all your children will stretch out their hands, and pick up the crippled man, father we will lead them home, father we will lead them home.

-leeland.

it breaks my heart,

2008-11-08T03:39:00.001-08:00

just to know you in part, and not to be with you, where you are.

-shane and shane.

who knows.

2008-11-07T03:29:00.000-08:00

today i bought some beautiful things (including a teacup for 20cents and a gift for a friend)
saw some beautiful sights.
and hugged and laughed with some beautiful people.
it was a good day.

sometimes things dont go the way you planned, i'm really bad at dealing with these times, but its always another opportunity gained if you want it to be.

i cant keep up with you

2008-11-03T01:16:00.000-08:00

come back.
ahh crap.

highlights of today:
txting jess.
talking to isaiah on msn.
drinking green tea.
about to go to bed.

hope for tomorrow...

(and maybe my eye wont hurt anymore)

or we could just have conversation.

2008-11-02T01:43:00.000-07:00

i miss you and its only been a few days.
please dont be mad.
just sayin'

why do you let me stay here, all by myself.

2008-10-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

being home alone for so long has gotten to me, i dont know how people can do this, it's been a week and a day and people have been here 3/8 nights, but i feel so lonely and scared. im such a child haha.
i haven't updated in so long, sorry this isn't exciting and full of updates and wonderful photos, i've been so busy..

you really got a hold on me

2008-10-21T21:51:00.000-07:00

hello hello blog world!
life has been super busy the last week and it doesn't stop! i think its coz summers comin' or something..
so, updates..
oscars!
friday 17th october, on the waipa delta, such a fun night. it was so sweet havin' it on the waipa delta before it moves to auckland (again, what the heck!??).
the top deck was the dance floor and we had blair the DJ busting out some sweet beats which i break and entered to (the best dance move ever, we had a big group of us doing it, fun plus)
and the bottom deck we had the awards and photos in.. so pretty, a few shots of the night..

on saturday we played at my house, i made oreo treats, they were wonderful..
on sunday emily and i made cupcakes, kathleens recipe reading skills were so important for this.. heh heh heh. then we went to church and then played at metropolis.

this week i was really sick on monday and tuesday, but went and played with kelsis puppies on tuesday night along with leong.. they are so cute!

Listening to:Volume 1- She and Him

just keep swimming, just keep swimming.

2008-10-16T19:21:00.000-07:00

my word, i haven't updated in so long!
im so busy right now, its crazy! we have our church ball the oscars tonight.. very cool, we're gunna rock out on the waipa delta before it moves to auckland (question: how do they move it there??).
i'll hopefully update with photos tomorrow!

- somebody replied to this saying that they take the elevator incase they meet somebody amazing.

Listening to: Seven- The Ember Days

happy birthday jessie mee...

2008-10-08T01:10:00.000-07:00

my lovely friend jessie mee, half way around the world, happy birthday!

for those of you who dont know jess, i pity you, get to know her via her blog http://jessinengland.blogspot.com

for those of you who know jess and are yet to wish her a happy birthday i suggest you head to her bebo, facebook or myspace quick smart and do so!

for those of you who want to date jess i will accept applications via comments on here.

for those of you who would like to win jess' heart/be sweet friends with her, you could start with buying her a coffee or an ice cream.

things i like about jess
#1. her ability to make me giggle for hours.
#2. late night chats about paarchute every summer.
#3. jess sees the value in coffee dates for any reason at all.
#4. her astounding sense of style yeeow. seriously though, shes amazing, have you seen her?
#5. that she converted me to diet coke and now im somewhat addicted, she also re-kindled my love for original flavour fantastic rice crackers.
#6. she is incredibly loving and always goes out of her way to make people feel at ease.
#7. she came over to my house and made me breakfast once, i really enjoyed that (she even bought feijoa juice with her which is my fave)
#8. i so admire the way she can make smalltalk with anyone and everyone who crosses her path, and she doesn't even sound like a dick when she does it!
#9. she sends me lovely txts from england which often become the highlight of my day.
#10. she can play the drums, and i really do admire this haha.
#11. her room is beautiful, i know this sounds weird but i really like nice bedrooms.
#12. we have wars about whos brownie is better, since it is her birthday i will pretend that hers are (this is obviously untrue)
#13. she is very creative, true story.
#14. she is an adventure mastermind... i miss going on adventures with her.
#15. she enjoys eating fruit possibly more then i do.
#16. once upon a time we had a leaders camp in waihi and there was a storm, we were convinced that our tent was going to fly away carrying us with it so we slept in her car and woke up to our tent being packed up and people staring at us, this isn't really a quality she has but i enjoyed this time.
#17. she left her comfort zone, flew to the otherside of the world and is serving Jesus and blessing everyone she meets, i think thats pretty big!
#18. she can parallel park, i cant, gutted.
#19. she ran a half marathon, i was totally impressed.

i love you lots jess, il try send your package next week, it will have maximum fun in it then, happy birthday!

moments like these..

2008-10-08T00:36:00.000-07:00

i just enjoyed a 3 day weekend and it was perfect! it started on friday night at bekas house. we watched juno (again) had a dance party and roasted marshmellows over the brazier (this just turned into a marshmellow war hah!)

another feet shot? perhaps a new tradition for me?

josh and i rockin out

some marshmellow/brazier action

saturday morning i woke up bright and early and met laura for breakfast at scotts, we did a bit of shopping then i went home quickly before going over to kelsis! we had her birthday lunch, made yummy cocktails and then went for dinner at cullens...

kels, sarah and i leaving for cullens..

it was yum!

josh and leong being awesome(?)

kels and i as we left cullens..

sunday i had lunch with mum at sierra, then went to church early with beka to help with set design, it looked amazing for the record... then metropolis.

monday! dave, gretta, beka and i went on an adventure to auckland for the day! the weather was terrbiel haha but it was still so fun.. shopping in sylvia park, op shopping on k road, visiting friends at hostels, eating dinner in the metro foodcourt, followed by drinking chais (from circus circus yum!) and dancing in the rain up mt eden.. gretta provided the supplies (bottles of water with freshly squeezed lemon which she squeezed in the car and bananas) and i provided the sweet beats... magical. i missed jess... jess i missed you!

i think bekas into me?

mt edens even pretty in the rain..

circus circus!

dave and c.p (co pilot)

the sweet beats..

Watching: VMA's!

we could drive 'til we've run out of road

2008-10-02T01:31:00.000-07:00

i just watched the cutest movie..

.. No Reservations, I love it! it makes me happy, i like happy movies, if you need a happy movie, you should watch this one :)
- i just said happy waaay too many times haha.

mmm today i bought gladiator sandals! and im still stoked on them, which means they were worth every penny :)

also, laura and i are going to scotts for breakfast tomorrow morning, at 7:30am whats more.. but i love scotts and i love laura! and i love breakfast, speaking of, you should check out http://simplybreakfast.blogspot.com/ its so pretty, except if you dont like breakfast (you are crazy and maybe our friendship will be over).

im going to clean my room now, my little corner of the world is currently a huge mess! night! xo

Listening to: What to do with Daylight- Brooke Fraser

but i'd be happy here

2008-10-01T01:53:00.000-07:00

p.s- my fave customer margaret came in yesterday, this was how our conversation went.

margaret- your voice is sounding abit husky dear, are you ok?
me- yeah im fine, i just had a bonfire on the bech in raglan late sunday night and im paying for it now.
margaret- ohh i see, did you meet a lovely man for yourself there? -winks-
me- just laughing.. not quite, not quite...

awh love her!

please slow this ride, it moves too fast

2008-09-30T19:21:00.000-07:00

the sun is shining outside my window and its looks summery, but secretly it is so so windy! so im staying inside for now heh.

i just bought the new vogue (australian cause thats all the supermarket had) and im gunna read it while im on the tredmill i think..

still so tired from the weekend but it was real sweet, i'll post pictures of the bonfire soon! aaaand its 9 days til in his honour and 8 days until berni and dan get here from wellington! so excited, love them :)

me and donk with some mac book fun on the weekend.

im also pretty sure im spending most of my days dreaming of roadtrips and op shops and picnic dinners and summer time shows, and then happily sighing.. like right then hahah.

so list of things im looking forward to right now..
#1. breakfast at scotts with laura on friday.
#2. kelsi turning 18 on saturday! we will party aaaall day! yeee!

#3. finishing off jess' parcel and sending it off (it won't arrive in time for your birthday jess :( but it will be amazing ok..)
#4. The show at eastside next Tuesday.
#5. This weekend, i hope the weather is nice and we can have a picnic!
#6. IN HIS HONOUR! seeing dan and berni!
#7. The Oscars! our church ball, we're having it on the waipa delta this year, i needa buy some shoes..
#8. purchasing my gladiator sandals and wearing them with pride and joy! haha
#9. East Coast road trip! Labour weekend come to me in a dream...
Thats all the mai events for this month, exciting!
What are you looking forward to?

Listening to: Better Way- Mumsdollar

sleepovers and cups of tea

2008-09-26T21:33:00.000-07:00

hello friendlies.

last night at church we had the world vision girls night out, i was helping with hosting and it was pretty hilarious, julia grace and petra bagust are two very funny ladies! after it finished i had a sleepover with my lifegroup girls and beka, it was nuts. there was movies, and laughter, and mi goreng at 1am. aswel as pushing people in the pool, photos, singing and playing on the gym equipment, i love my girls!

now i am sitting and drinking a cup of tea while i wait for beka to arrive.
or camp rock to come on, whichever comes first! except i think i'll pop out to get some more batteries for my camera first since a bunch of people are visiting me tonight to watch movies (my parents ran away from new zealand AGAIN, in aussie for the weekend) and tomorrow night after church we are hopefully! going to raglan for a bonfire, the weather doesn't look that promising though, so there may need to be a back up plan.

(our last bonfire in raglan when jess was still here, although im pretty sure shes taking the picture)

i put lots more photos on my walls yesterday afternoon when i left work early with the flu/some dumb sickness. im basically sweet now though.

oh! i also went out for breakfast with laura yesterday morning, perfect!

i really miss jess! jess, i miss you! i need more credit for my phones and things.

that is all for now, a little boring but ahh well. x

refine me through the flame

2008-09-25T03:27:00.000-07:00

i've been sitting, waiting, wishing.

2008-09-22T02:15:00.000-07:00

hello blogging friendlies!
here is my list of things to do between now and the end of january, join me on my adventure!

1. eat a huge ice cream at pokeno.
2. go on a new years roadtrip with friends and make memories.
3. go to the east cape with kelsi and wear trackpants for 4 days heh heh. ok maybe not the trackpants part.
4. but gladiator sandals!
5. have more sleepovers, especially with laura. with raspberry drops, mmm. and summer heights high.
6. have more themed parties and bbqs and pool parties at my house.
7. completely re-decorate my room.
8. take so many photos.
9. run more.
10. swim in the ocean. (i hate/am scared of it, geek i know)
11. buy pretty togs like the ones i like in frankie.
12. have the best parachute ever.
13. go on day trips to raglan.
14. sit in garden place reading magazines and eating gelato with laura.
15. talk to jess on the phone more.
16. get to know new friends better (this is you amanda :] )
17. go to hastings with leong. i think it was hastings that he said anyway.
18. go on lots of picnics.
19. dinner parties!
20. hang with emily lots and bake cupcakes before she leaves.

ok thats enough for now heh heh... what are some of your things to do this summer?

stole this pic from lauras coputer so i dont know where its from x

dearest sarah and margaret

2008-09-19T03:18:00.000-07:00

sarah and margaret are my two most faourite customers. they are sisters and they are probably about 60-70.
they were there on my first day of work 18 months ago, and they still come in.
on my first day they gave me a pep talk when i probably looked like i wanted to cry, they say im like their grand-daughter. margaret kinda reminds me of my nanna, kinda out there and stuff.. they tell me i will make some man very happy one day, heh heh heh.
when im stressed out and want to run away from all the mean customers, i think of them.
please be nice to your waitress/barista/cafe supervisor person :)

ways to win my heart.

2008-09-15T02:36:00.000-07:00

a list of ways that will win my heart, if you ever hear of a boy trying to win my heart (please jesus one day haha) you can pass these thoughts on..

write dates in my diary like on 27 dresses.. cute!
fill my room woth little post-it notes you've written on.
take me to breakfast.
take photos with me.
one word.. flowers.

thats all i have right now.
the post-it note one is a biggy though hehe.. one day..

come to me in a dream summer

2008-09-04T02:55:00.000-07:00

im so excited for summer, top things im looking forward to..

1. going on a roadtrip to wellington with laura, kelsi, israel and david. we're going for new years and i can't wait! aughhh!

2. parachute '09. already makin' plans, exciting!

3. watermelon and all other good fruit.

4. bbqs and pool parties at my house, party central all year round, i love it.

5. the beach! walking along the sand, roasting marshmellows over the fire, all so good!

6. wearing pretty dresses and gladiator sandals please.

7. painted nails.

8. looking at the sky for hours.

9. family times, christmas and fairy lights.

10. holidays and making memories, lazy nights, the way the air feels, and the atmosphere of the summer time.

11. ice creams in cones and green frujus! mixed lollies from the dairy.

12. late nights in metropolis after church.

just one more thing MARIAH CAREYS CHRISTMAS ALBUM!

actually lots more things, but that for now..

i really like this picture, it reminds me of roadtrips.

Listening to: I bet that you look good on the dance floor- Arctic Monkeys

the truth will set you free.

2008-09-04T02:23:00.001-07:00

so many people comin' and going, isaiah flew off yesterday, im ok, more then ok.
i came to my own revelation about something that has been taking up way too much of my headspace lately and it feels like a weight off my shoulder, thank you jesus.

isaiahs last night in nz, we watched thats so raven til some silly hour, such rockstars.

i have some really beautiful people in my life. like my lifegroup girls.

me and glowia.

hannah babe.

today i cleaned my room, then i got bored of cleaning it, i really want to re-do it completely, its too small for a double bed, disappointing.

tomorrow night we have a girls night at church, with a wedding theme, it'll be so so cute! i picked up some fairy lights for it today, i hear that there may be a chocolate fountain too, yum! i'll take pics.

i found this cool thing on another blog that i like to read, its so pretty and inspiring.

'habits'
1) clothes shop: i'd have to say probably dotti and opshops.. except that alot of my shirts are online and from bands.

2) furniture shop: redcurrent have so many lovely things! i want a coat stand from there!

3) sweet: so hard! i have such a sweet tooth! i love ice cream, and chocolate fondue! mm yeah, those the most.

4) city: i do love hamilton coz thats where most of my friends are, but to visit i love wellington in nz. or sydney was amazing! i like it the most out of every where i've been in australia. america i dont remember too well. fiji, well its nice to relax but i get bored.

5) drink: ohh! i am basically addicted to diet coke! but i love lemon, lime and bitters, ice green tea and hot blackcurrants! and coffee mm. and wine sometimes.

6) music: too much to even start, acoustic, folk, hardcore, pretty music, basically everything, even abit of ya trick ya if i'm in the right mood ;)

7) tv series: extras, summer heights high, friends, shortland street! ohh and gilmore girls and kath and kim!

8) film: chick flicks and feel good movies, right now i love 27 dresses. but also into the wild and batman etc.

9) workout: walking. or team sports.

10) pastries: ohh croissants! especially with chocolate in them, yum! pastries are such a weakness of mine!

11) coffee: yum! either trim flat white or trim caramel mocha if i need the sugar heh heh.

Listening To: My Love Goes Free- Jon Foreman

spaces and seasons

2008-08-29T20:45:00.000-07:00

maybe its not a real wicked idea to write a blog after i've had the worst week i've had in a very long time? mmm i promise to keep the whining to a minimum though.. i'm in such a weird space right now, yes people are leaving, yes things are changing, yes people let us down, but the friends that stick by me i seem to be pushing away too, why is this? i feel so drained and sick. i was listening to shane and shane the other, i just bought their album 'upstairs' it is so, so good. this song and the words that they wrote about it in the lyrics book really stood out to me..

"i have been eating off papaer plates for a while now. beautiful, white, disposible plates. quick... convenient... tasty... at least for a moment. but oh for the feast. the four course meal. the indescribable feel of forever. where everything turns to rubbish. and fast food becomes bland and i wake with a longing...
now, i sleep... aching... malnourished.. because for some reason i've been blessed to sit at the table.. and i hate that i'm satisfied without it. with drive throughs and fast food. i miss him.
i walk with jesus. i love him. but there is something about the feast. there is someting about his feet".

"oh for the grace to enjoy the one thing necessary". (luke 10:42)

put down your paper plates
come to the table made
deep blue china
found on the table by the wine
so fine

it brings out flavor
like you bring out color in life

oh, i miss you so
the feel of forever
oh, the taste i know
it hurts to remember
unfortunately high
ironically dissatisfied
i miss you
i miss you

oh, i miss you so
the feel of forever
oh, the taste i know
it hurts to remember

i had a fleeting thought this morning
and i mentioned you today
it breaks my heart just to know you in part
and not to be with you where you are.

i miss you- shane and shane.

boy, im tired

2008-08-23T02:04:00.000-07:00

changes are comin'. God is good. He is always the same, yesterday, today and forever, i can hold onto that, i like that.

photos from happenings the past week or so..

these are from jess' leaving doo.

i'm spending saturday night at home alone, its a good feeling, i needed this.

Listening to: Tired- Adele

people

2008-08-20T05:04:00.000-07:00

i like this quote..

"to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure of keeping i tintact, you must give your heart to no-one, not even to an animal. wrap it careful around hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of selfishness. bus in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... the only place outside of heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love is hell." C.S Lewis.

quiet nights

2008-08-13T02:53:00.000-07:00

love them, i've just been looking at pretty blogs for about the last hour, i want one heh heh.
i've also been dreaming of travelling, i was looking at camp america but i don't really know if that woulf be for me. i dream of europe constantly, il get there one day soon. next year its sydney, then maybe i'll take a year off travelling and save, who knows, hopefully my sister can get me a flight some place cheap, sometime soon. i'd like a holiday, sydney was amazing, but not really a holiday, in the sense that i didn't rest or sleep properly at all during the week i was away. maybe i should plan something awesome for this summer, who wants to go on a roadtrip for a week? i'm completely keen, i might start saving for that too.

i'm keen for summer soonish, not just yet though.

Listening to:19- Adele

things not to do when applying/trialing for a job

2008-08-11T23:00:00.000-07:00

I have learned these things over the past few weeks while reding over C.V's and trialing people at work.

1) Spelling things wrong on your C.V does NOT go down well. Especially when its a heading like "Work ExperiEnce" yes thats right, its not spelt "Experince".

2) "Teaching my younger siblings how to bake cookies" is not previous work experience. Neither is "Caring for my elderly grandparents". Thats just life.

3) When your boss is telling you where the grater goes for the 7th time, don't yell at him in return, its your fault that your dumb in the first place.

4) I thought that croissants were pretty normal? And bagels? Why do you not know what they are?

5) Don't ask if you can start to learn how to make coffees now if after 2 weeks you still can't put the coffee cups in the right place.

6) Don't wear boots you can't walk in and a dress when your working in a kitchen.

7) By the second week of a 2 week trial period you should know enough to not stand there awkwardly all the time.

8) Don't get your friend to speak for you when you come in with your C.V and don't chew gum in my face.

9) Since when is it normal to take the front piece of cake off the platter and leave a gap at the front of the display?

10) Watch other staff members for clues on how to act regarding what food you can eat/ drinks you can drink and breaks to take, dont go as far as they do.

11) Don't ask the same dumb question 10 times, i was starting to lose my patience the 4th time you asked.

12) Don't respond to instruction with giggling, unless its funny. If its not funny, theres no need to giggle.

13) When somebody asks you to do something, don't get crazy defensive, especially if they asked nicely, thats just uneccesary.

14) NO, HAM SANDWICHES DO NOT GET SERVED WITH CREAM, WHY ON EARTH WOULD THEY!? AUGHHHHHH!

15) Don't sit on the floor of the kitchen eating toast coz you didn't have breakfast when your meant to be working, or ever.

16) When the oven timer goes off, and everybody else is busy serving customers or not in the shop, don't just leave it for the next 3 minutes, check whats in the oven isnt burning and figure out what happens next, just don't leave that horrible buzzer going.

17) Spelling is great. Learn how to do it.

18) It's always a good idea to shut the hot food display once you've finished in it.

19) When cutting tomatoes etc. it's always good to start with the knife the right way, as in cutting with the sharp part, not the blunt side. Just sayin'

Thats all I have for now based on my last few weeks, got any to add?

i miss you already

2008-08-04T02:57:00.000-07:00

isaiah, i miss you already.

i need a new 027 phone, mine is dead, booo! anybody want to give me new one? im gunna have to go buy one tomorrow. and my rego was due today. and i owe my chiropractor money. and i still needa pay for church camp! gahhh! ok, thats enough of that little cry, il be sweet.

anyway, tonight i've just relaxed at home, and looking at all the prettiest blogs ever! i just feel like it should rain now, and i need dim lighting and a cup of tea, mmm.

i still need to put all my pretty new pictures on my wall, perhaps a mission for tomorrow morning or wednesday night, i think im ready for bed now, needa stop stressing about all the things i need, or want. or whatever.

Listening to: 19- Adele

hellos and goodbyes

2008-08-03T04:02:00.000-07:00

ok i lied about the hellos. i haven't really said any hellos to new people in my life. i havent really said any goodbyes either though i guess, just 'see you later's.

so, friday night we had our 'ONE' service, which was about 20 youth ministries from hamilton coming together and lifting up Jesus with one vioce, there was no competition and it was just a sweet, sweet night, it doesn't matter who you are, or where you come from, we are all one body. then we went and chilled at my house for abit, i was still so dang dizzy, its getting better though, i pray im ok at work tomorrow!

i call him leong tan, hes pretty neat.

this is amanda, shes pretty lovely.

mmm, saturday i worked then chilled at rosies with some other cool kids. we watched the rugby and ate beer steak. mean! still abit dizzy but ok.

rosie, could you please just get in a picture with me for once?

sunday had church, real bad dizziness in the day, just hung by myself and had some timeout then night church and metropolis wooo! its 11:13pm now, i need to go to bed! im a nana heh heh. that was possibly the most boring thing i've written? oh! im gunna get a laptop from father! just gotta save a few hundred and a mean one will be all mine! yeee!

goodnight x

Listening to: Crazy for you- Adele

melt my heart to stone

2008-08-02T03:57:00.000-07:00

right under my feet is air made of bricks
that pulls me down and turns me weak for you
I find myself repeating like a broken tune
and I'm forever excusing your intentions
then I give in to my pretendings
which forgive you each time
without me knowing they melt my heart to stone

and I hear your words that I made up
you say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one
in love, I'm the only one in love

each and every time time I turn round to leave
I feel my heart begin to burst and bleed
so desperately I try to link it with my head
but instead I fall back to my knees
as you tear right through me
I forgive you once again
without me knowing you've burnt my heart to stone

and I hear your words that I made up
you say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one
in love, I'm the only one in love

why do you steal my hand?
whenever I'm standing my own ground
you build me up then leave me there

where I hear your words you made up
I say your name like there should be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one
in love, im the only one in love.

Adele is wonderful...

Listening to: 19- Adele